Time

it seems to be that time, like most people say, is infinity. It goes beyond and travel ways we could never imagine. and it also seems to be that people believe that they own time, however little that is, and believe that they can control it. I guess that's why we created Time in form of watch, hours, daylight saving etc. So that we humans can feel like we actually can control it, even if we're not. We were gullible, so we create a safe net protection such as time, wrist watch amounted hundred of dollars or even thousands, maybe hoping that the more we spend on our watch, the more time we could get? Or maybe just attraction, or attention which are also the same form of human vulnerabilities. We were often so afraid of the relentless void of the future, we become this living zombies in form of insecure beings who are afraid of time and money. I often think now that we're not His slave, we're 'money' slave, 'time' slave. We became afraid not to our one and only, but we're afraid of elements that we can't control. We became fixated to wanting to have power or control over things that aren't for us to control.

I'm going to be 21 soon, and I'm still feeling like I'm losing time, like I can't control it, and I became afraid of what lies ahead, what I'm gonna be next 5 years, do I have enough time to make a change in the world? It's like how Elliot says, everyone changes the world, like how he goes to the beach and went back home bringing sands and rocks under his shoes and how he got scolded by his mother for sleeping into the bed with the shoes, the dirty shoes, but his father doesn't scold him, his father said, that Hundred of years ago, the world changes and brought the sand and the tiny rocks to the beach, and now he (Elliot) changes the world too, even if it's just a little bit. That's how the world goes, we changes the world everyday with our presence, but in reality, the changes were so little that we often didn't see it. I mean, how many times does Elliot have to go to the beach, to really change the world, by vanishing the beach (bringing back little bits of sands everyday, per say). Because that would really mean that the world changes, in the map, in the life of people who live around the beach. That would mean changing the world. Like really changed the world.

In case many of you were wandering who on earth was this Elliot, well he's a character in a netflix series called Mr. Robot which I highly recommend to everyone who are still reading my blog (i don't know why but thank you so much for your time). The series will worth your time, but it'll blow your mind. And warning, it's not relaxing series, you gotta think when you watch and you'll be agitated all the time. I promised you that.

Ah yeah, I do have time to watch Mr. Robot apparently. So much for the fear of time.

Here's to a new sem babies.