Interviews

Hi guys,

just some update on me life that I'm sure nobody really cares but hey, this is for me.

I'm going to have my interview(s) on 26th March 2018. From Prudential and SOCSO. Why those two? I have no idea really, I didn't apply for both, they actually contacted me (through GRADUAN website, for the UKEC fair in London). I was surprised to be contacted, I was pretty sure nobody would even think of recruiting (eventhough it was just a call for an interview) regarding the fact that I'm pretty much trash, and not performing well academic-wise or curricular-wise (as people can see in my resume lol)

Oh well, but I was called anyway.

I'm pretty sure I'm stuck in between this transition of finishing my degree and knowing what I wanted to do in the future. I have like solid principles that I want to adhere to, but not really solid and concrete ideas on what I would want to do. So that's why I was hesitating of applying anything honestly. I'm not much of an introvert lol so going into big businesses and big firms scared me. But also, I'm not the kinda person who wouldn't want to give it a try or give it a go. I would want to challenge myself too. 

I finished my FYP presentation!

haven't started doing the proper write up but yeah, I'm getting there.

This three weeks of Easter Break is basically me going through hell of finishing my FYP and studying for my exam and (tinsy bits of adulting in the first few days lol).

I hope I'll get through this.

PLEASE PRAY FOR ME SO THAT I CAN GRADUATE.

I'M SO SCARED FOR MY DEGREE LIFE SJFKSFKSJG.

burnt candle

Have you ever felt like you're burning and burning and constantly on fire, that one day the fire just extinguishes and you felt like the ashes. You felt you're on the ground, burnt, and left to micro-pieces. To nothingness? I felt it now. I felt like I've been burning all my life and now the fire just gradually diminishes and eventually stop burning me.  

Are we in that state where our fire stop igniting and we're left to ashes?

I don't think so. It's too early, I'm too young to give up on my life.

But I don't think my fire is lighting up vigorously like before either.

Am I burning out? Are the fire slowly getting off?

I'm stressed out. I haven't really done my fyp. I have two assignments. I have exams. I'm stressed because I'm not sure on what should I do with my life. Should I just applied for jobs without really figuring out what I really wanted to do? Should I continue my education? What aspect of jobs do I want to venture into?

Why am I indecisive?

Why am I so passive?

WHY AM I NOT BURNING VIGOROUSLY?

Where is my fire?

How do I light it up again?

How do I make it vigorous again?

Dear Lord,

How do I raise from my own ashes?