thin air

I hate people who suddenly walks away.

Because I felt rejected.

Without knowing why.

Therefore basically I hate myself.

As I myself,

do that a lot: walking away.

Well I'll make myself clear.

Even though my 'clear' is always still very very shady and not clear at all as I like to beat around the bushes.

cover my words layer by layer with uncertainty until you may not know what I want in real.

But that's what I'm good at.

haven't I told you I am very cunning.

Like a fox,

and somehow adapt the same cuteness they have.

hahaha ok that one is a lie.

But here's the thing.

I have a thing in my mind, an agenda that needs to be done.

Of me, fading into thin air.

But here's the thing, I don't want to hurt any soul, as it goes against my values.

But fading will definitely left a hole in the soul of my people.

And therefore here I am in a dilemma.

of either being a thin air.

or left a hole inside of my own soul.

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I have these two options.

Of either hurting, or to get hurt.

see...

you're a bliss, and you're also a scar.

I see you and I see happiness,

but it's the kind of happiness that aches.

and I have let myself get hurt over and over again that I can no longer let myself aches.

so you're the happiness that aches.

And I have to let you go.

Will you let me disappear into thin air?